what life would be like..

I'm reflecting my m/c. I wonder what life would have been like if we didn't m/c our two babies. Let's see. I would have an son who would have turned 2 Aug 30th and a daughter who would be 1 in Dec 30th. I wonder if I would be so tired from chasing my 2 year old and my one year old. Wonder if I ever would get all my canning and house cleaning done. I wish I could post that I would be so tired from chasing my nice perfect family, but I can't. I wish I didn't m/c. I wish our babies had a chance to live. A chance to have their own rooms. A chance to see and play with our dogs. Instead, I'm stuck in a quite house. No babies crying, no chasing toddlers, no hearing a child laugh. Just an aching heart. Just me. Alone.