Trust

So, some of us have grown up knowing the hymen "Trust and Obey". I was just thinking was does trust really in tale for us. I looked up trust in the Webster's Dictionary. It reads:
"Trust (n). Confidence or faith in a person or thing; care or charge; the confidence or arragement by which property is managed and held for the good or benefit of another person. (v) To have confidence or faith in ; to believe. to expect; to entrust; to depend on".

So, trusting means to have faith in a person or thing. Now that is something to think about. Trusting God that he knows the best for us. That's something that I'm still learning. Trading in my safety for God's safety. David encourages us by saying, "Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding;in all your ways submit to him,and he will make your paths straight (Prov 3:5-6).

TO BE CONTINUE...

just chatting with God

God has been showing me a lot on my walk today. Although reading and memorizing scripture is great and beneficial to your walk, it can also be a hindrance. Ok, let me explain this. I only thought that God had speak to you, only while you pray in the morning. This would eventually be my focus drive activity daily. I would strive to have that set just reading scripture and then out the door and it was something that I could just check off "my things to do list". I don't really get a lot out of it. I tend to think that this was the ONLY way that God can speak to you. It wasn't until my walk today that the Lord change my view on this. He very gentle told me that He can meet me anywhere. I don't need to just talk to him in my morning scripture thing and that's it for the day. It's something more. He wants to speak to us even as we go on about your day. Today, He spoke to me while I was walking my dogs. I was just thinking, praying and thanking him while we walk. Then He said, ever so tenderly, (he is such a gentleman isn't He?) "Why are you making things more difficult for you? Don't you know that I love you so much and will meet with you anywhere? It doesn't HAVE to be just in your morning prayer. I want to talk to you regardless of where it is". God is so good!

Another thing that the Lord showed me was just how much he really cares for me. I was very anxious about starting subbing at this new classroom. Not only anxious about starting subbing, but nervous that I wouldn't find a job here soon (I know it would released a huge financial burden off of DH). I was started to worry that we couldn't make it. Then Lord reminding me of Philp 4:6 . I starting praying about my anxiousness and prayed for his peace. All day, I was at peace. Not only did I have peace, but the Lord explained to me something. He said, "Don't worry about what job you will be in or even what classroom you will be in. My grace is sufficient and I will help you through it". I thanked the Lord. God is so so amazing.

what life would be like..

I'm reflecting my m/c. I wonder what life would have been like if we didn't m/c our two babies. Let's see. I would have an son who would have turned 2 Aug 30th and a daughter who would be 1 in Dec 30th. I wonder if I would be so tired from chasing my 2 year old and my one year old. Wonder if I ever would get all my canning and house cleaning done. I wish I could post that I would be so tired from chasing my nice perfect family, but I can't. I wish I didn't m/c. I wish our babies had a chance to live. A chance to have their own rooms. A chance to see and play with our dogs. Instead, I'm stuck in a quite house. No babies crying, no chasing toddlers, no hearing a child laugh. Just an aching heart. Just me. Alone.