Questions to ponder..

Somethings I just don't understand. Somethings I just want to ask God what his reasoning and purpose is on a certain situation. If I had a chance to ask God, I think I would ask him.... Why it seems that the people who can't take care of their own children, seem to have them abundantly Why it seems that these are the people who don't cherish or give their child any nurturing, love, or attention Why it seems that these people abandon their children to do what they want to do Why it seems that couples who do not have any children are so nurturing and loving have to suffer through infertility year after year?

Coffee vs Me

Coffee and I have a love/hate relationship right now. You see, I love the smell and taste of coffee. It wonderful to have on a nice summer afternoon/morning. It's excellent on a fall afternoon as well. I absolutely LOVE it!! The worst part, some may ask? Well, if I drink it after 3pm, then I can't sleep. If I can't sleep, my wonderful husband can't sleep and that's a problem. Especially because he gets very grouchy and who wants a grouchy husband? Certainly not I. Well, that is exactly what I did last night. I should have know better...but I couldn't help myself (or at least that is what I'm telling myself). The restaurant we were eating at was freezing. Plus I was mentally drain from my meeting earlier that day and I needed to stay awake for a bit more until we got home. That is when I order coffee (didn't even think to ask for decaf). So, this morning I'm feeling it...and what am I contemplation right now at 10:05 am? Should I brew some coffee to wake up??? AHHHH!!

Is it too early to think about Christmas??

May I ask you this question? Do you think it's too early to think about Christmas?

Personally, I saw no. Especially because as I walk into Walmart the other day, I saw that they had Halloween candy out. Now that is crazy. Halloween candy in AUGUST!! Now Christmas on the other hand.. I personally can listen to Christmas music all year round. And if it wasn't for my husband banned me from putting up Christmas decorations before Thanksgiving, I definitely would!!! (Can you see me with a piece of tinsel and my husband saying (like a police officer would in a hostage situation), "Ma'ma Please put the tinsel down and nobody gets hurt" and me waving the tinsel fervidly at him yelling...NOOO). Ok, maybe I was a little dramic here..but I figured you get the point.

Hello Mr. Toes

I wanted to be patriotic for the 4th of July, so I painted my toes. What is the names on these colors your ask? Why it is, Siren Red and Blasting Blue. Not that crazy, I know. I was going to buy some white flowers to put on them too, but forgot to get them when I went shopping. Which reminds me of a story.... It was back in 2000, my Aunt took my sister and I out shopping. She wanted a girls day out (she didn't have any girls, just boys). She took us to the local mall and we found our way to Bath and Body works. As we were smelling the different scents, I remember quite vividly, that she was SO excited about something. She called my sister and I over and said, "SMELL THIS". I look at her strangely for a second; partially because she had this crazy look in her eyes and another was because she stood there holding a bottle of nail polish. She held out the bottle of nail polish and process to shove it under our noses. It smelled faintly of chocolate and nail polish smell. She then exclaim, "doesn't that smell great? WE CAN PAINT OUR NAILS WITH IT"!!! Next then I knew, we were at her house painting our nails with it. I remember my Aunt kept smelling it while exclaiming.."It's chocolate..hmmmm". That's the end of the story. I know kinda random..

Hello Summer!

Now that Summer's Here. I have a few things on my list to do, like..: 1. Spend more time in the Word :) 2. Clean house 3. Organize house and sort out yard sale stuff 4. Yard sale 5. Move bookshelf from one room to another 6. Catch up on my Summer reading book 7. Paint spare bedroom 8. Spend time with family and friends 9. Possibly travel across country to see my sister! This is a change from last summer. Last summer, I went straight out of school to coaching soccer for the summer. I barley had time to breath. Don't get me wrong I LOVED coaching soccer, but I'm glad that I'm taking this summer to R.E.L.A.X. This past year in school, it has been very stressful. I actually started getting burn out. I needed a break. So, I very much welcome it.

The Joy of the Lord

“He will yet fill your mouth with laughter and your lips with shouts of joy”.-Job 8:21 Luke and I were spoken over with this verse back in November 2009. Earlier in that year, we experience our second miscarriage (May 30th). I remember quite vividly that after we receive these words, I was a little frustrated with God. Even though, I had this unspeakable peace about it. I was thinking: “I am still mourning over our miscarriage and the Lord said he was going to fill my mouth with joy”? What joy? I was heartbroken and upset that the Lord took away our second child as well as our first from us. How is God going to fill my mouth with laughter and my lips with joy? I didn’t understand it. But, the Lord is GOOD. Four years later, I went to a women’s conference this past month and Carol Ball (the speaker) felt lead by the Lord to speak about having the Joy of the Lord her first night there. I clung on to what she was about to say. This is what Carol said: How to get the Joy of the Lord 1. Crying out to God. Psalms 40:1-3 said (me paraphrasing) that He will turn his hears to your cries and will lift you up. 2. Retreat with the Lord and He will bring you Hope. Read his Word. Isaiah 40:28-31 3. He will set your feet on solid ground. Something to hold on too (Scripture/the Word) Psalm 27:5 4. Praise Him for being your strength. Neh 8:10 After she gave us these guidelines, I remember thinking yes..Finally! I don’t have to feel so beat up because I didn’t think the Lord heard me or even cared that I was hurting so much. I remember crying out to the Lord a lot after our miscarriages. It’s so nice to know that God hears me and he lifts me up. I felt relieved to know that he will renew my strength and give me such hope. Isaiah 40:31 has been one of my many promises from God to hold on it. I prayed that the Lord will give me the Joy of the Lord as my strength. So He did. Now, my worship has been more intimate. I have this unspeakable joy that just radiance from me when I worship with my follow believers. I can’t explain it fully, but I am truly grateful for this new hope and joy..

Looking for a good infertility book??

A lady from my infertile form posted a link for this infertile book on amazon. It's actually quite good. It's written by a young women who is experiencing Infertility and how the Lord has use her infertility to help others. She also talks about how she has a new prospective on life. She is focus on praising God for sending his son rather then focusing on her idol of becoming a mother. It's good and has alot of scripture. You can check it out at: http://moneysavingmom.com/2012/03/free-ebook-how-my-soul-yearns-how-god-brought-me-through-infertility.html Note: It's a free download to your kindle if you are an amazon prime holder. It's 2.99 otherwise.